March 28, 2010

An Autopoetic Life
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What does it mean to be the conscious author of our own life? As we look at quantum physique and consciousness studies, it is now apparent that our beliefs, thoughts, words and actions have a direct role in creating our reality: our actions and words are dictated by our thoughts and our thoughts are molded by our beliefs and values. As they swirl in our consciousness, our beliefs and values, partly shaped by years of social conditioning, send, most of the time, the same unconscious signals to our bodies and out into the field. A lot of those unconscious signals are vital like the ones that tell our heart to beat or our legs to run when danger is present. But a number of those signals were acquired and don’t serve us anymore, like the ones that prevent us from trying something new.

 

Becoming the conscious author of our life requires us, as a first step, to notice those habitual patterns as they come up. How do we do that? There are many introspective tools out there that help in brining attention to our habitual patterns. One I like using is to pause before I speak or take action, take a deep breath and become the observer of the situation. I try to see the situation from a subjective 3rd party observer, with the ego out of the way. By doing so, I can choose to engage my habitual response or choose differently. Deepak Chopra calls this the “observer response” or the “intuitive response”: instead of having habitual responses create our reality, we can choose, moment to moment, what it is that we want to project out into the world, and what kind of experiences we want to attract. What we send out is what we will receive. Therefore, a second useful step towards becoming the conscious author is to surround ourselves with people, thoughts and experiences that relate to the kind of life and world we want. For example, if you want to become a painter, go to galleries and art openings and mingle with painters and art lovers. If you want more peace in your life, consciously choose to be around peaceful people in peaceful spaces. As you choose differently and engage the world differently, you will send out signals that tell the field that these kinds of experiences are the ones you want and you will therefore attract more of it. So how is this different then the law of attraction? The 3rd step in becoming the conscious author is to get clarity around what it is we really want. Not what our ego wants but what our deep inner self wants, what the collective inner self wants and what the whole universe wants. It is a holistic desire for the greater good. The primary purpose our existence, as I see it, is to expand our consciousness. We all have our unique way to do that and as we incarnated on this earth, we choose how we will contribute. Establishing a connection with that purpose, that Dharma, brings great a sense of joy, meaning and fulfillment. That unique essence is what inspiration is made of. When we witness an inspiring experience, it is a sign that there is a quality in that experience that aligns with a quality in our purpose. Sometimes, it isn’t always clear as to what that quality is but as we pay more and more attention to those moments, the ones when our eyes tear up, our breath skips a beat or our heart fills with love and intense joy, we become more and more familiar with that innate connection we have with our purpose and our true self. That blueprint, that “knowing”, is accessible to us also through meditation combined with the simple action of asking the questions, without looking for answers: “who am I”, “what do I want” and “what is my purpose”. Asking the questions everyday before bringing our attention into a centered calmness for a few moments attracts the answers into our lives. And as the answers are revealed in the form of expanded new questions, we can make inspired choices, bring meaning to all we do and become the conscious author of our lives.


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January 14, 2010

Non-attachment and rituals
“Loosen your grip a little, and remember: whatever you hold onto is already dead, because it is past. Die to every moment and you will discover the gate to unending life”  – Deepak Chopra

I just concluded a 40-day process. I would meditate every morning with my primordial sound mantra, do my chakra sutra practice, head to the beach with a voice recorder and record my thoughts as I ran for 30 minutes on the beach side path. The reason for this 6 week process is I needed a commitment from myself to finally put down on paper this book that has been swirling around in me for a few years now. I needed to make a commitment to myself to do it everyday and get my husband on board so he could help with the children and with creating the space and time for the process. Just like Julia in Julia and Julia, making a commitment to put your attention to your project every single day really helps in finally birthing, or at least getting the contractions going on your project.

One of the themes of my recordings was detachment. I was seeing the importance of a daily ritual to create a habit for the mind, body and soul to expect, to anticipate a moment of reflection. The first few days, as I sat on the beach before my run, I would express my intentions long and large about my writing and my Dharma on earth. It would take a few minutes for me to feel connected to the archetypes, elements and symbols at play in my creation process. I wanted to feel the presence within of each one before moving on to the next. But after a week or so, I started to notice that all I needed was a subtle intention to “tune in” with the different vibrations and my connection would happen more and more spontaneously. In the second week, I felt the connection happening as I left to house and walked towards the beach. And in this last week, just the thought of going for my daily run would bring forth the connection. My being was responding to the ritual by anticipating what was coming and it would speed up the process and bring a deeper connection. That is why rituals are so important in ancient traditions. They create a space for the amplification of intentions.

On the other hand, I was aware that holding on to the ritual was bringing up the notion of letting go and detachment. If I repeat something every day, doesn’t that stop the new from coming in? If I know what to expect every morning, doesn’t my world become predictable therefore less magical?

I began to realize that even rituals are processes and within them, there should be space for change and growth. Just like I invited the energies to come in and did not resist the changes in how they manifested themselves. Just like my intentions change everyday. Just like everyday has a different vibration and holds a different destiny. My commitment is to my Dharma, which is to live the expansion of consciousness through inspiration. My commitment is to allow for space and time each day and every single day to my Dharma. And where I find myself right now in my evolution, I require inner stillness and centered calmness every day, preferably in the morning, which I get with meditation. I require physical exercise as it ignites the fire of creation within me (especially in a Kapha like me). And I require an inspiring and expansive setting, which the Kauai scenery definitely brings. But I am not attached to the content of these components, or to the components themselves for that matter. I know that when they don’t flow anymore and feel like a struggle, they need to be changed or replaced. Just like the energies that came in faster and deeper everyday, as I kept clear around my intentions, steps of the process will become more spontaneous and therefore leave space for new steps to expand through me.

What an exciting journey!



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